Crossing The Line At Work! | Internal Affairs | Casualty
The theatre lights were unforgiving, clinical and bright, as Stevie lay on the table with fear and resolve flickering across her face. “How are you feeling?” someone asked with professional gentleness that barely masked the pace of the room. Her answer was blunt, laced with defiance: “Sooner you knock me out the better, OK?” The anaesthetist nodded, the shrug of someone who was used to calming nerves with measured words and a syringe. “Understood,” he said. Before the drugs dulled her, there was one tremulous question from Stevie, the kind patients ask when everything beyond the operation feels like a cliff’s edge: “Will I need a stoma?” The team exchanged glances; the answer wasn’t simple. “I don’t think that’s likely,” one doctor reassured her, but the caveat was clear — nothing was guaranteed. Plan A, they reiterated, was laparoscopy — the keyhole approach that promised less trauma and a faster recovery.
Then reality intruded: Ms Rowland, the surgeon who might have led this case, wasn’t available. They had to act immediately to restore tissue perfusion and prevent irreversible damage. The clinical imperative erased hesitation. “Trust me, Stevie,” someone murmured: promises of competence and care in the face of escalating danger. Rida — Stevie’s steady presence in scrub blues — squeezed her hand and promised not to leave her side. “Do me a favour, yeah. Just do not leave my side. Make sure I come back in one piece.” “Absolutely,” Rida answered, a promise as much to herself as to her friend.

Once the anaesthetic took effect, the theatre team moved in with machine-like precision. But as they advanced, the operation diverged from the plan. “It’s more complicated than I anticipated,” the lead surgeon said, voice tight with concentration. The laparoscopy would not suffice. They needed a clearer view — a conversion to an open midline incision. The decision to convert is rarely a small one; it signals that what was hoped to be minimally invasive had become invasive in the literal sense. Rida, peering at the images and the tissue, asked the question everyone dreads: “How bad is it?” The answer, when it came, landed like a blow: the mass was entangled with pelvic organs, invasive and, most likely, malignant.
The room’s atmosphere changed. Where there had been a sense of contained control, there was now the jagged edge of the unknown. Nicole’s face — usually composed — told a grimmer story. “It’s much worse than anyone could’ve predicted,” she said quietly. Rida’s follow-up was almost reflexive, every word seeking a route other than the most drastic one: “What happens now?” Nicole’s response was clinical and crushing at once: the call now rested with Mr Whitelaw, the senior surgeon whose judgment they all trusted. Given how the mass infiltrated multiple structures, the only viable option to give Stevie a fighting chance was a hysterectomy.
Rida recoiled at the word. “No. Is there anything else we can try first?” she asked, the nurse’s plea for alternatives that might spare a friend something irretrievable. “I wish there was, Rida,” Nicole replied. The truth was stark: to remove all visible disease and prevent catastrophic progression, they needed to take everything involved. The hysterectomy, brutal but necessary under the circumstances, was the measure that offered Stevie the best shot at survival.
The surgery that followed was long and precise. The team worked in concert, cutting through layers of tissue to excise the mass that had entwined itself across Stevie’s anatomy. When they finally declared the hyster-ectomy complete, there was a hollow triumph in the words: “Not our usual territory. We’ve done well.” But the celebration was practical, not celebratory — they still had to make sure there was no active bleeding before closing. This was the tedious and perilous endgame of any major operation.
Small human moments punctured the tension. Rida’s hand shook slightly as she retracted, trying to steady the theatre’s rhythm with gentle focus. An impatient voice snapped — Russell’s, clipped and exasperated. “For Christ’s sake, you’re a liability.” Apologies tumbled out. Rida’s plea to stay with Stevie — that simple promise she had made — felt like a bulwark against the sterile machinery of surgery. Russell barked, hurt and hard, “Just get out. Out!” Nicole, sensing the emotional strain, soothed and told Rida she had it under control. But the theatre bore witness to more than scalpel work; it held the rawness of friendship, loyalty, and the small cruelties that fear can provoke.
When the anaesthesia wore off in recovery, the news had to be said in plain terms. “Stop! How far from plan A did we end up?” Stevie demanded, the patient’s voice laced with a fear that would not be anesthetised. The surgeon’s explanation was blunt: the surgery had been more complex than hoped because the cyst had grown, adhered to the bowel and surrounding pelvic organs, and was invasive. They needed the pathology report for a definitive diagnosis — only then would they know whether the mass was cancerous. The vitally important fact, however, was that they had removed everything visible.
“What did you remove?” Stevie asked, voice trembling. The answer came as a list that read like an atlas of loss: jejunum, sigmoid colon, left ovary, peritoneum over the bladder — extensive resection, a body partially unstitched and altered. In the sterile honesty of the recovery bay, the patient’s outrage and despair bubbled: “I mean, we can transplant hearts and reattach limbs, but the only way to find out if a woman has cancer these days is to open her up and tear her insides out? It’s medieval.” The words were bitter, but they were the vernacular of someone who had just felt her bodily autonomy surgically and irrevocably changed.
Faith, the nurse, tried a pragmatic intervention: hydrate, walk a little, distract the mind from its collapsing scaffolds. She suggested a back rub, small comforts in a newly altered world. Stevie’s retort landed with raw grief: “You could try giving me my womb back.” The bluntness of the loss cut through the clinical choreography. “What? What?” the team murmured, awkward with the limits of words when facing irreversible change.
“Stevie. It’s gone,” someone said gently, and the room became a place where medical truth and emotional fallout collided. In that charged moment, promises and solidarity were the only balm: “Is this the bit you’re going to tell me everything’s going to be OK? That we’re in this together?” Rida’s answer was immediate: “We are.” But even reassurances felt fragile against the horizon of loss Stevie now faced.

Russell — who had been the brash, irritable presence earlier — allowed a sliver of softness. “Working a complicated case on a close colleague, you’re allowed a wobble. But just the one.” There was an attempt at levity to lubricate the grief: “I still believe that there is a brilliant theatre nurse just clawing her way out.” It was the kind of wry, slightly desperate humor people use to steady shaking hands. “I’ll tell you what, I’ll have a word with Dr Piper and the others, make sure that it’s kept entre nous — our secret,” he added, a promise to protect Stevie’s privacy and dignity in the small injustices that follow trauma.
The scene closes not with resolution but with a complicated quiet. The operation had saved life in the immediate sense — removed the mass, arrested the imminent threat — but the cost was a reshaped body and a future that would require navigation of fertility, identity, and the fear of what pathology might reveal. The theatre had done its job; the harder work, emotional and existential, was just beginning. The promise to stay, to keep the secret, to hold the line — these were the fragile stitches that would have to hold Stevie together as she woke to a new life that was irrevocably different.